frustrating..
- i can never seem to actually stick to a weight loss goal or anything, i find myself saying 'ohh well, ill do it tomorrow' or something, n then i just give up. what can i do to actually stick to it??
ok…havent been on here in a while….
soooo, im freakin out, n ive been gorging myself for the last week or so. had a friggin meltdown beginning of last week, n been goin in a downward spiral since. the guy i reallllly liked, n who i tohught liked me back decided to stop talkin to me, n is now with another girl. after she broke up with her last bf of like, a friggin year about 2 weeks ago. WTF?!?!?! ugh!!!!!! on top of that senior year is suuuper stressful n i have been breaking down about once a week now into sobfests… i dont understand…. n my lil sis is absolutely psychotic. she ried beatin the shit outta me with a spoon today at luch, because i tried having a bowl of ‘her cereal’ needless to say, i hate life atm. it really blows…. n ive been wantin to purge really bad lately.. like, hella bad. i know its bad n all, but i just cant seem to give up all the crappy foods, especially since they are the easiest ones to eat now that i have braces, n its all my dad will buy… thanks to the lil sis :/ grrr!!!!! idk what to do anymore. i just want to freak out n scream n cry, n just run away from everything. cant wait til i graduate n get the hell out of here…. question is, am i gonna be able to make it that long with out goin over the edge first??
Day 20
ok, havent blogged in a few days
n havent really cared what i eat
but got told im gettin thinner,
well, thats what other ppl are saying
should i believe them??
idk… im still super self concious…
hmmm, ohh! got spacers today :)
makes eatin harder lol
maybe i wont eat as much now :P
my mouth just achesssss
ohh well, just gotta get through this
NEW MARCH CALENDAR YAY!! This month’s theme: cardio.
Summer is fast approaching, guys! As I’m sure you all know, the fastest way to burn fat is cardio.
Here are the rules:
1. You want to knock a lot of these exercises out at once to really get your heart rate going. I put my suggested rep count on the calendar. Yours may be completely different. Just do whatever gets you sweating and your heart going, but if you can’t breathe or are in pain, stop.
2. For the mountain climbers and bicycles, one rep is not the movement of one leg. One rep is the movement of right-left (or left-right). BOTH LEGS come up and down.
3. This won’t work if your diet is bad. Eat healthy, darlings. Abs are made in the kitchen.
4. The amount of reps and when you do them are not set in stone. Are you super-fit? Up the reps, do the workout more than once a day, or add this to your regular workout. Are you a beginner? Take it slow, divide the exercises into groups and don’t do them all at once. This is for you, and only you know how your body works.
P.S. Don’t understand some of the exercises? You’ll find them all here, except for the squat-jumps, which you can find here.
Have fun! ♥
Day 18
ehh pretty good. couldve done better, couldve done worse
breakfast-bowl of life n a poor mans mocha
lunch- easy mac n a pickle n a bowl of spaghetti
snacks- donut n about 10-15 club crackers
dinner-bowl of clam chowder w/buffalo sauce n cheese
had a couple deep fried shrimp pieces from dq n a couple french fries.
no workout today
but had a loooong talk with God.
oih…i had a sob-fest
but it was worth it <3
Day 17
breakfast- bowl of oatmeal n a piece of whole wheat toast w/pb n starbucks double shot + energy drink n had 2 ‘struesal’ muffins
lunch- 1/3 of a salad n a pickle
snack- orange, mini bag of skittles, mini sour rope thing n mini ywizzlers
dinner-plate of spaghetti n a bite of spaghetti
havent worked out in the last few days…n im actually ok with that. im done obsessing over my weight, im happy i have food to eat n that im not starving….
i did do the 100 calorie workout tho :P
but im not gonna freak out if i slip up n eat a lil unhealthy n whatnot
yes, i wanna be healthy, but i am learning to love my body the way it is. :)
worked out for about a half an hour…
dont feel good now
idk why
maybe im dehydated..
or maybe i pushed my bod a lil too hard after gorgin myself today
who knows..
theres always room for a better tomorrow :)
